On the cusp ...

Here we are, with just over an hour to go until a brand new year. I feel like I should say something inspirational and a little groundbreaking. But I am a bit at  loss. I want to talk about how much our lives have changed throughout the course of 2009. I want to talk about the joy at finding our new home and making it ours. The sorrow of losing loved ones. The beginnings of my new job and the sweet children it has brought into our every day lives.

I feel such a sense of new beginning for this year, we are beginning in our own home , we are expecting the joy of a new baby for our family, in the form of a sweet niece or nephew. Fraser will be beginning his new journey into high school. Murray has some exciting changes coming up at work. Kirsten may be leaving the happy and cosy nest of Playgroup to move on into the School system and Nursery.

But I don't even know where to begin!

 I feel contented and very blessed to be sitting here in my cosy home, my amazing , kind and hardworking hubby by my side (only a little bit asleep ;) .)
My handsome big boy smiling over at me from the couch , crunching away happily on a bowl of golden nuggets.
My sweet angel girl all snug in her bed , wearing her special princess jammies chosen all by herself today, hopefully having the sweetest of dreams.
My fabulously important, (and expensive) worth her weight in gold, scrumdiddlyumtious meatball roaming around staring at me, wondering why she isn't tucked up in bed with a full tummy like she usually is by this time each night.

I have everything I have ever wanted and am a little bit afraid to voice how happy I am and how lucky I feel , lest it be taken from me.

We have really been through the mill this year but we have come through together, with the knowledge of what is trully important in tact and stronger than ever.

I still have so many things that I want to work towards in 2010

I want to be less of a perfectionist. Now everyone surrounding me would probably argue this point.How could someone as disorganised as me be a perfectionist! But it is this very thing that is holding me back. Quite often I will not begin something if I know I cannot finish it perfectly.
I will remind myself that to do my best and actually get something done is better than never acheiving anything in the pursuit of perfection.

I want to be more positive, I want to banish the negative thoughts that sometimes creep in. I need to remind myself that the teeny things the kids may do  that drive me up the wall, are merely tiny things that if ignored will just pass like they never were. It is my negative comments that turn them into issues. I will revel in their positive traits, of which there are many.

I want to be the best person that I can, the best Mother and wife, my kids need me to be dedicated and loving. They need to know they are the most important things in my life, as does my man. They all need to know they play second fiddle to nothing and no one.
 I will be the best sister I can be. I feel this may be an important one this year as my sister is about to embark on such a huge change to her life, I have been there twice, surely there are some tiny nuggets of something in my experience that may help her out.
I want to try to be the best daughter, daughter in law, sister in law, Auntie, Childminder and friend. I need to remember how important these people are in my life and let them know how much I appreciate their love, support and friendship.

I need to procrastinate less. I need to organise my time and my paperwork! Plan my meals and manage my money better. All of the boring stuff that surely holds a lot of keys to the success of each other.

I need to lose weight, broken down into lbs, my weight loss seems more manageable and surely with a fabulous Minnie Mouse water bottle, my new excercising plan will be a breeze! What could go wrong! Even if I don't quite make the 23lbs I want to lose I will surely end the year fitter and healthier than when I started!

And in the spirit of my new non - perfectionism, next year at this time, I will not beat myself up for all of my failings from this list!

I will remember that I love and am loved even with all of my faults and strengths.

Happy new year, I am going to go and join my boys once more while we wait for those all important bells to ring. I will always remember the rollercoaster of 2009 and I am glad many of my memories are stored here for me to dip back into and remember.

And there's a hand, my trusty fiere!



And gie's a hand o' thine!


And we'll tak a right guid willy waught,


For auld lang syne.
 
 
See you all next year xxx